I have decided to go back to work full-time. I have tried this SAHM thing and it really isn’t for me. I have been faking it–I’m an awesome faker. I am just not as happy as I could be and life is to short to squander opportunities for happiness. I stayed home one full year and this past year I started working part-time. I love my son, don’t get me wrong but I am not a good SAHM–unless laying around on the couch letting him memorize SpongeBob epsisodes counts and if it does I am so winning Mother of The Year. I long to be working and miss teaching. I have tried on the whole “I am so happy to not be teaching high school anymore” and the “I love not having to work” but they are empty and I have been saying them to myself for two years and guess what–I still don’t believe it.
So, I have started applying for teaching jobs that will start in the fall. I am a little sad that I won’t have the same special time with Peepers that I had with Minnow but I just can’t do it anymore–without turning into an Afterschool special on Obesity and Insanity. Minnow will thrive in daycare–as I think I totally bore him and Peepers will do alright–I can already tell she is a social climber. My kids will be happy if I am happy and right now I am not all that happy.
There is an opening in one of the districts I really want to work in–sorry to disappoint but I have given up on teaching in impoverished districts. I am moving on to more affluent ground. Sorry, but yes I am totally selling out. I need the extra money to pay for day care and for gas.
The district that is currently my first choice requires a phone screening interview. It was hard–part of that is because of the problem on my phone line and all I could hear was static–I hope I answered the right questions. I tend to overthink questions and I caught myself making faces at the telephone after a few answers think to myself–“sure that’s what I think.” I am pretty sure I “passed” the interview. We will see. They have two open positions for my area–high school English and they want to have them filled by May 23rd–the last day of school. I would love to know that I have a job lined up before I went to Ethiopia.
When I got my palm read–the lady did tell me I was getting a new job–this wasn’t the job I was envisioning but it is so much better–I actually get paid a real salary and they will pay for the doctorate…icing on the cake baby and I love icing.
I have to say that I honestly hope I never have to do a phone interview again. I like to see the person’s face when I answer when I use my big words.
Totally understand. Good wishes on your job search! It’s a struggle and I miss my boy a lot when I’m at work; but, I do feel more in tune and focused on him when I am home now that I am working FT again. I’m now just looking for something that really is just 40 hrs rather than 60, for ex. The search for the balance most desired is tough. This nation is so behind on the matter.
anyway – so much excitement! court date – Peepers – School – new job and more. You’d really max out on one of those life-change stress tests, eh?
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Congrats, Dawn! I’m really happy you’re doing something to make yourself happy. I’m not cut out to be a SAHM either, and Amelie thrives in daycare like Minnow will. It’s the whole outgoing kid thing–she was bored when we had a nanny, too. Now she can spend her days convincing all the little boys in her class to take their clothes off! I’m in so much trouble with this one, I tell you. Congrats on being done school, too! Big high five at ya. And I’m so excited you’re going to get Peepers!! WHOO HOO! I’ve been meaning to email you, but am swamped trying to get work and non-profit loose ends tied up before this baby comes…I really want you to be involved with EOR, so you’ll be getting a formal request to that effect soon. Happy Mother’s Day!!
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