So, I have started another attempt to shed the extra 100lbs I am carrying around.  I know, I know.  Enough already.  But here it goes.  I have tried many differet programs and have only half-heartedly followed them for a few weeks here and there.  The problem was that none of them forced me to make a lot of real changes.  I need accountablity and I need real accountability.  Weight Watchers doesn’t work for me because the accountability is anonymous and you don’t have to go to a meeting–you can skip it.  Adjusting my own diet–doesn’t really work either because again no real accountability.

Three years ago I dropped just over 50lbs in 6 months on a nutrition and exercise program–I met with a nutrition counselor (he was a self-touted nutritionist–but wasn’t really) and worked out with a trainer–who was totally awesome.  After 6 months I was pretty sure I had it all figured out and as much as  I hate to admit it–I really disliked the nutrition kid.  I can call him that because at the time he was a college kid who had dropped well over 100lbs and was selling his success as something that work for everyone.  I just didn’t feel like the program was really designed for me as an individual client–but rather a one-size fits everyone who wants to lose weight.  I went back to my old habits and ended up gaining most of the weight back.

Fast forward to today and I am still unhappy and unhealthy.  So, I talked to my trainer and found out that he and another trainer were leaving the gym and opening their own private training studio.  I was eager to sign up and get back into shape.  I want to be in the best shape of my life by the time I am 40.  I still have a ways to go and some demons to confront and overcome and some hard truths to face and own up to.  I have been working out with my trainer for 3 weeks now and I have to say that he totally kicks my ass every time and its awesome.  I am working out harder than ever and have a nutrition coach that I like and who is really all about designing a food program for me.  So far, so good.  Lost 3.5lbs the first week and have more energy than ever.

Which leads me to the title of this post.  This week I haven’t had any unnatural sugar–I have had fruit, etc but no refined sugar of any kind.  Today I caved and had two small packages of fruit snacks.  I just have to say that I feel like shit.  My stomach hurts and I am feeling quite lathargic.  I really wanted to write this down because I want to remember how I feel and that 200 calories of nothing but sugar–isn’t good for anyone.