I have missed this place and every time I think about popping in, a stack of poorly written papers keep me at bay.  I can honestly say that teaching is kicking my ass.  I can also say that I couldn’t possibly love my job more (well maybe if it paid a living wage–but don’t get me started on that–I work at a pretty conservative, private high school).

As most bloggers have experienced and as I have twice now, things are changing.  My life is changing.  My need for this space has changed.  My kids are older and I no longer feel able to write much about them.  Which sucks, because they are awesome.  I feel as if I have done the search for personal growth–I still need to find time for me to exercise and eat right.

I have to do some thinking–and some writing here, to try to figure out what this space is and what this space will be.  I can’t abandon it–it has too much history, but it will have to change.  It is still about me as a woman needing a space to be imperfect.  But it also needs to be  space for me to document what I am living.

Blogging has changed.  I spend a lot of time updating facebook–for friends and family that weren’t included here in the private-public place.  I spend a lot of time on Twitter sharing and looking for teaching ideas, etc.  I spend a little time on tumblr keeping my students up to date on what we are doing and I use instagram to post pics of my awesome kids.

I don’t want to lose the history that I have here–but I know that the current format isn’t necessarily working and fulfilling my needs.

I’ll have to keep searching and writing.  Writing and searching and as I believe–the answer will come.