I feel a little like I am living inside the book.  My world isn’t exactly how I pictured it and sometimes I have to wonder if I have just dreamed it all up.  I am not saying in anyway that my life is bad.  I wouldn’t trade my hubby or kids for anything.  They are awesome.  I just often wonder why I get to be happy and others struggle to find it.  Then I have to questions what is happiness anyway. 

I know that happiness certainly is subjective and I certainly have to admit that overall I am happy but there are certain aspects of my life that I couldn’t be more unhappy with.  But I have the things that are important–health, love, family and a home.  After a night out with friends, I have a wonderful husband waiting for me at home.  I know that not everyone is meant to be a family person nor is everyone destined to be married.  But what about those who want it so badly.   Don’t they deserve the happiness that I never thought I wanted and certainly never looked for.  My world and where I have ended up seems like a fantasy that I created just like the little boy in Where the Wild Things Are! which was one of my favorite books and still is a favorite kid’s book of mine. 

I don’t know how I got here exactly but I am glad that I did.  I wish there was a recipe as I have friends who long to have the happiness (husband, family, home) that I do and I feel sad that I can’t help them get there.  I am lucky and I need to remind myself of that often.  I am lucky to have all that I have.  I am lucky the wild things found me. 

We arrived in St. Maarten yesterday and I have to say the my children could not possibly travel better.  No one cried on either flight–a two-hour flight and a 4-hour flight.  I couldn’t believe how well they did.  

The house we have rented is amazing and we have an awesome breath-taking….

“J saw some wild dogs…Curt and I call them goats”

Just wanted to memorialize the above comment. I have to say traveling with my family is pretty hilarious.  We are the kind of siblings that really get immense joy out of ridiculing each other.  It’s very fun and makes for a lot of laughing and good times.  

Noah has some weird bumps on his face.  I don’t know what the hell they are.  The popped up yesterday and look like small hives.  But then they dissappeared and then popped back up.  

Anyway this post has totally gotten side-tracked.  But, we are having fun and I’ll post more later.  

Just wanted to say–I love the ocean.

In this mad dash to get everything done so our bathroom remodel goes well, I dropped a box of 11 big stone tiles on the tip of my big toe.  In the middle of Lowe’s, while mulit-tasking and talking on the phone, I screamed a low gutteral “fuck” and looked down to see my toe gushing blood as I imagine my jugular might if cut with a Samari sword.  Okay well maybe not that bad, but it was pretty bad.  All I had to manage the blood with was a couple of baby wipes.  Mind you my hand were so dirty from handling all the tile and grout.  It was not one of my prettiest moments. 

My toe is sore, a little black and still bleeding a little–especially when Noah wants to see my “owie” and pushes on it.  He thinks he is making it better. 

The timeline train is moving so fast and I still have a billion things to finish–like study for my Stats test tomorrow and finish my EOR newsletter and pack and do laundry, and and and…the list really is neverending. 

I will be blogging from St. Maarten. I have decided to take my computer with me.  I will want to down load pics, etc.  I know i will take way more than my card holds.

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Well, it’s been 2 1/2 days since hubby left for his business trip and I am happy to say that I am still alive.  While just barely.  It has been tough and I have to say to all those single mom’s out there–You are amazing and awesome and how do you manage to not go completely insane?  Do tell.

I have been busy.  I haven’t fit in a shower yet.  I know, I could be taking one now, but instead am writing this blog post.  I also could be doing homework but am writing this blog post.  I am exhausted and I can’t believe I have the rest of the week until hubby comes home.  I still just might go crazy. 

I have finished touching up all the photos from my shoots this weekend and yesterday I had the awesome pleasure of shooting a girlfriend of mine and her 4 month old little boy.  As part of her shower gift I gave her photos for the first year.  The pics turned out great.