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Friday Weigh In

/ Dawn Kasal-Finley / 5 Comments

Well, I did okay with my weight while I was in Ethiopia.  There wasn’t that much time for eating and I was mostly very busy and very tired.  I then came home with a bit of a stomach bug and didn’t eat much the first few days home, as well as I was so tired that I readily went to bed before dinner.  I am not back to being hungry, but there isn’t a lot of time to cook healthy food, while I am adjusting to this whole two-kid thing.  It is hard when you have a two-year-old and an 8-month-old.  They both need a lot of attention and work and I don’t always have time to eat something that is good for me and low in calories.  But I am recommitted to doing so starting today–I can’t wait for everything to fall into place, I have to make it happen. 

I am down a total of 9.2lbs since I started WW 5 weeks ago.  I am pretty happy with that. 

September goal– lose 25lbs by 9/27–16 more pounds to lose. 

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Well, my excitement with Peepers sleeping last night was short lived.  She woke up at 12:30 and then again at 2:30.  At 2:30 she just wouldn’t settle back down and I am really on the edge of going insane if I don’t start to figure her out and reach some sort of comfort level with her soon.  This is not a tongue and cheek comment.   I mean it.  I am tense and high-strung to the point of being wound so tight that it won’t take much for me to completely unravel with a speed so fast that someone loses a head or eye or something.  I am trying to find some peace and some balance, but I forgot what it was like to have someone need you every minute of everyday.  It was different with Minnow because he was the only real demand on my time.  Now I have Minnow and Peepers and I had really started to recently enjoy some of my own time while Minnow was playing contently at home.  It is a big adjustment to lose your time and I don’t know that I was fully prepared for it to happen. 

I have been really lucky with Hubby being home this week, but this week is over and come Monday he goes back to work and  I am on full-time mom mode.  I am not sure how it is all going to go. I am so happy to have my baby girl home.  I know that everything will work out and it will all be great.  Eventually. 

Thank all of you for your continued support.  It means so much to me.  Oh and when Peepers smiles at me and giggles.  I know it will all be okay. 

Friday Weigh In

/ Dawn Kasal-Finley / 8 Comments

Well sadly I gained a small amount of weight this week.  I know it is totally related to my stress.  I am stressed and haven’t been eating the best and I only made it to the gym twice.  I hate making excuses, but life just got in my way this week and I didn’t try all that hard to combat it.  These weeks will happen and I am okay with that, as this is a long term goal and I have a long road ahead of me.  I also know that I will most likely not lose any weight next week while in Addis.  I will certainly try to eat reasonably and healthy but it will be a little difficult to do. 

So, I am no where near closer to my mini-September goal, but when I get back I will have plenty of time to be focussed and using WW to the best of my ability and I know it will work for me, as long as I work for it. 

For the first time I am at peace and not totally feeling like a failure.  Yay!

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Well, my carry-on crisis has been adverted and only cost me more money.  I think I actually have nearly a pound to spare in my carry-on.  I have my bags packed and both of them are under 50lbs which is nice and something I don’t have to worry about now too.  I am so ready to go and cannot wait to hold my baby girl.  I have crossed nearly everything off of my list except for cleaning up the house and going the grocery store. 

I am going to try and blog while in Ethiopia.  I imagine I should be able to because my site is not hosted with blogger or wordpress.  I use wordpress on my site, but I don’t have a wordpress address.  So we will see.  It would be funny if my site was blocked in Addis, but I seriously doubt it.  I didn’t blog on my trip to get Minnow and I am sad that I couldn’t because I would have like to have had a written record of my feelings.  I tried to keep a handwritten journal, but I sadly have become unable to write significant ideas and thoughts with pen and paper.  I really need a keyboard to do real writing.  Hard to belief I use to do all my writing longhand–I wrote a novel longhand and now I cannot even write a journal entry. 

Did I mention that I am leaving for Addis tomorrow? 

Friday Weigh In

/ Dawn Kasal-Finley / 3 Comments

Down another 1.2lbs this week.  I am excited.  I am still working out this whole WW thing and seeing what works best for me.  I still have not yet eaten all of my Weekly Points Allowance and I don’t eat my Activity Points either.  I am very happy with my weight lost.  I am getting closer to my goals and am not getting frustrated or bored with WW.  I am enjoying the simpleness and freedom of the plan.  I would like to get to a place where I was loosing 1.5lbs each week.  Thanks for listening and for your support. 

We are going out of town today for Father’s day weekend and our last weekend as a family of three.  Holy Shit.  Pretty soon we will be a family of four.  I can’t believe it and I can’t wait.  I am so excited to hold Peepers and to bring her home to Hubby and Minnow.  Hope you all here in the Midwest stay safe today as the thunderstorms are suppose to be huge.  Have a great weekend everyone–I have two posts ready for this weekend–they will post Saturday and Sunday.  Check in as there will be some beautiful photos of my children. 

September Goal–25 lbs by September 27th– 2.2lb gone so far.

Friday Weigh In

/ Dawn Kasal-Finley / 2 Comments

Well, this marks my first full week on WW.  I used my home scale to record my weight this morning as opposed to the scale at the gym–and weighed in first thing in the am instead of in the afternoon.  So lot’s of differences.  The numbers say a loss of 6lbs but I know that is not right and it is more like a loss of 1lb.  I am totally happy with a loss of 1lb.  I have changed a lot this week–new exercise routine, new eating.  Learning how WW works for me as there are lots of different theories out there–eat you APs eat your WPAs-don’t eat them, eat half of them, etc. 

I certainly have a goal–I want to hit the 130 mark by April 1, 2010 (I know it’s a long term goal).  I certainly have short term goals as well.  I am going to St. Marteen for a week at the end of September and I want to be 25lbs lighter at least and we want to start IVF in January and I would like to be about 60lbs lighter by then as well. 

This is a journey and I am committed to the long haul.  This is a lifetime change and I am all in. 

September Goal–25 lbs by September 27th– 1lb gone so far. 

It Doesn’t Matter How You Got Lost…

/ Dawn Kasal-Finley / 8 Comments

It only matters how you find your way. 

I am profound aren’t I?  That’s a rhetorical question in case you were wondering.  I have reached a REAL breaking point in my life.  I know, for those of you who have been reading me for any amount of time, I have said this before, but this is so very real and I feel it in every ounce of my being.  I have gotten to the point where I don’t recognize myself in the mirror anymore–especially in a wall of mirrors while doing fusion yoga (a cross between yoga/mat Pilates).  I was in class on Monday and I looked in the mirror and wondered who the hell that fat chick was?  When it hit me.  That. Fat. Chick. Was. ME! 

I know this shouldn’t be a surprise t0 me, as I have watched the numbers on the scale rise slowly since Minnow came home and as I quickly ingested enough food to feed an NFL linebacker.  I know part of my eating issues is that I eat when I am bored and I am bored at home.  Sorry Minnow, but it is true.  I am bored and unfulfilled.  This will hopefully be fixed by getting a job, but if not, I will have to find ways to not be bored. 

I have been playing around with losing weight without really committing to anything, because then if it doesn’t work then oh well.  Well, I have blogworld and realworld buddies out there who have shed big chunks of themselves using Weight Watchers.  I have been hesitant to join WW–I tried it shortly after Minnow came home–but sadly I wasn’t ready to take control.  But I finally did last Friday and so far so good.  I still have some issues and some trigger foods that cause me to eat too much–ICE CREAM.  But I am committed and I even got hubby on board too–he’s not exactly committed to his own need to drop a few pounds but he is supportive of me and counting points for himself too. 

This isn’t going to become a weight loss blog by any means–but it is my blog and it is about being imperfect and I am admitting my imperfection.  I weigh in on Fridays and will be tracking my progress here on Fridays.  Any and all encouraging words are welcomed. 

Thanks.