She is officially ours–sadly I think ours was one of the only cases to pass this time around. It feels great, but I am so sad for all of those who didn’t pass as I so remember what that feels like–your heart stops beating and drops into the pit of your stomach. I am hoping that they all pass next time…But now what I know you have all been waiting for–PICTURES
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with one of her amazing care givers
Can’t wait to find out when we get to go and meet her…..
Peeper’s court date is today. Will let you know when it is safe to breath again.
Or better know as eating out with your toddler. All of you with two year olds who have only one speed–overdrive–know what I am talking about. This past weekend consisted of two large meals. My entire family took me out for my graduation and it was a blast–of course I spent half of the meal watching Minnow walk up and down the stairs. Have I ever told you all how much Minnow loves stairs? All day long he could walk up and down stairs…It’s a blast in case you were wondering–almost as much fun as blowing bubbles for 2 hours.
And because one long meal wasn’t enough we went to a beautiful brunch on Sunday morning. Minnow is a great kid and he is really good in restaurants (as far as a two-year-old is concerned), but it just isn’t fun or relaxing to go to a long meal and want to sit and relax. Hubby stepped up big during brunch and kept Minnow busy as did my brothers–who are totally awesome. But the bottom line is that it so totally sucks to take an active fun-loving toddler out to a nice meal that doesn’t involve big furry creatures, play places and plastic utensils and plates.
I don’t know why other’s cannot understand and why I cannot say no. I had suggested we have everyone over for my graduation celebration–simply because I didn’t want to have to mess with taking Minnow out and didn’t want to have to deal with getting a babysitter. But family is family and they all wanted to take me out, etc.
So, how do you all deal with going out to eat, enjoying it and taking your toddler who can’t sit still? Wait let me guess–you don’t go out. I now understand why people don’t. I finally have come to understand and see that it just isn’t fun for any of us to do something that Minnow just can’t do. I will miss going out to eat–but will certainly enjoy keeping my eyes away from the sharp hot sticks.
Another year has passed and I am more and more grateful for the gift you have given us in Minnow. I know you would be so proud of the little man he is becoming. He is talking up a storm and some days I can actually make out a few of the words in the flurry he throws at me.
I want you to know that I think of you often and talk about you to Minnow. I know he doesn’t understand now, but someday he will and I want him to know that we love and honor the choice you made. I know the only way to really honor you is by raising him well, and I can say, “so far so good.” I hope you know somewhere in your heart that he is loved and cared for. I wish there was a way to let you know–I send out good thoughts to you always. I like to believe that on some level we are forever connected and that half a world away you can feel my love for Minnow and for you.
I have been thinking about a ritual to honor you that Minnow can partake in. I think we will begin to plant flowers in your honor. Last year I planted tulips for you and sadly this spring wasn’t a good one and they did not come up in their full glory, but they still make me think of you every time I see them.
I am a mother because of you. You not only made yourself a mother–and don’t think that because you are not raising your son that you aren’t a mother–but you graciously, courageously and selflessly made me a mother too. There are not words sufficient to express the gratitude that I hold in my heart for you. I hope you are well and have found peace with your decision. Please know that he is so very loved.
On this day we will say a few words for you and I will tell Minnow the story of the bravest woman in the world–the one who gave Minnow to be our son. Thank you just seems so insufficient a word but I must say it anyway.
Thank you.
Love Minnow’s Mom
Thanks Hubby and Minnow for all of your love and support.
Embracing Imperfection 
