I have not written about weight loss in a long time–probably because I have fallen off the bandwagon and there really isn’t loss going on.  I have skirted the severity of the issue and it is time that I address with brutal honesty the serious nature of the issues.  I am not dying…not any faster than I am just through natural aging–don’t want to freak any of you out. 

I have PCOS and have written about that previously–sorry too lazy to look through past posts for specifics.  Because of this my hormones are messed up–especially my estrogen and I am insulin-resistant.  This means i have a hard time raising my good cholesterol number and my triglycerides are high.  This puts me at high risk for type II diabetes and heart disease.  Now, while there really isn’t much I can do to change the facts, I can change everything else.  With diet and moderate exercise I can reverse the effects of the PCOS–not get rid of it but manage it–and reduce my risk for type II diabetes and heart disease substantially.  I have been ignoring this.  PCOS is what is keeping me from getting pregnant and I think that subconsciously I didn’t want to get pregnant–that is a whole separate post–but now that we have decided not to do IVF there is no reason I can’t work on being healthy.  I need to do it for myself and I want to do it for my kids.  I want to be healthy and I want to live to see my grandchildren grow-up as well as my own children. 

It has been really easy to just ignore the severity of it and treat my weight loss as a cosmetic goal, but it isn’t.  I owe it to myself to be honest an to work hard to really make sure that I am doing everything I can to be healthy.  I don’t want to be put on meds to control these issues (insulin resistance) that can be handled through simple diet and exercise changes.  I haven’t made my health a priority, partly because that means I would have to address the real issues that I have and the serious turn they could take. 

Thank you for listening.