It Doesn’t Matter How You Got Lost…

/ Dawn Kasal-Finley

It only matters how you find your way. 

I am profound aren’t I?  That’s a rhetorical question in case you were wondering.  I have reached a REAL breaking point in my life.  I know, for those of you who have been reading me for any amount of time, I have said this before, but this is so very real and I feel it in every ounce of my being.  I have gotten to the point where I don’t recognize myself in the mirror anymore–especially in a wall of mirrors while doing fusion yoga (a cross between yoga/mat Pilates).  I was in class on Monday and I looked in the mirror and wondered who the hell that fat chick was?  When it hit me.  That. Fat. Chick. Was. ME! 

I know this shouldn’t be a surprise t0 me, as I have watched the numbers on the scale rise slowly since Minnow came home and as I quickly ingested enough food to feed an NFL linebacker.  I know part of my eating issues is that I eat when I am bored and I am bored at home.  Sorry Minnow, but it is true.  I am bored and unfulfilled.  This will hopefully be fixed by getting a job, but if not, I will have to find ways to not be bored. 

I have been playing around with losing weight without really committing to anything, because then if it doesn’t work then oh well.  Well, I have blogworld and realworld buddies out there who have shed big chunks of themselves using Weight Watchers.  I have been hesitant to join WW–I tried it shortly after Minnow came home–but sadly I wasn’t ready to take control.  But I finally did last Friday and so far so good.  I still have some issues and some trigger foods that cause me to eat too much–ICE CREAM.  But I am committed and I even got hubby on board too–he’s not exactly committed to his own need to drop a few pounds but he is supportive of me and counting points for himself too. 

This isn’t going to become a weight loss blog by any means–but it is my blog and it is about being imperfect and I am admitting my imperfection.  I weigh in on Fridays and will be tracking my progress here on Fridays.  Any and all encouraging words are welcomed. 

Thanks. 

8 thoughts on “It Doesn’t Matter How You Got Lost…”

  1. Oh, good for you! I am so proud of you for doing something good for yourself. I am 7 months in, and there are still foods and situations that challenge me, but mostly by now it’s about me…and yes, boredom is a huge reason. Motherhood is many things, but not always non-stop excitement. Some nights I tell my husband I want a big hot fudge sundae, and he’s like, “No you don’t, what do you want?” and I realize I need a hug and to go to bed.

    I think once we take care of ourselves the way we love and nurture of children, all manner of things fall into place. We’d never give our kids candy when they need a hug, so why do we settle for less?

    Please let us know how you do! I weigh in on Wednesdays – as of yesterday I was down 62lbs. I only have 25lbs to go, and I am so amazed at myself.

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  3. I’ll be cheering for you!!! I’m trying to lose the baby weight myself, so I’m right there with you. I gained 40 pounds during my pregnancy and when I delivered weighed more than my 6’6″ college football playing husband (have I mentioned I’m 5’4″???). Pretty.

    Since I had a c-section I can’t work out for 6 weeks, so starting Monday I’ll be eating clean for a month and seeing where I end up. I’ll also be walking the hills in my neighborhood (we’re at 8700 feet) carrying the baby and his oxygen tank and pushing Amelie in the jogging stroller. Hopefully that gets me strong enough to work out for real once I’m able. I think I’ll go on Weight Watchers after the eating clean month if I’m not making enough progress.

    Since you’re weighing in, I will to. I weighed 170 this morning.

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  4. Good for you! I love WW and will be right back there after this baby is born…and I recoop a bit. The main benefit for me is standing on their scale each week. It makes the difference to keep me on track…and the counting points. I never realized how it’s just a small amount of points that makes me either gain or lose.
    Becky

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  5. You go girl! I really need to get going too…I’m tired of being fat. Pretty sad that during my pregnancy I got up at 5am 5 days a week to exercise (because you know it was for the health of my baby) and yet I can’t seem to find that commitment now (because its just me now). I’m determined though and you are inspiring me too (yes, I’ve also said that before)…now I just have to get brave enough to post about on my blog like you.

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  8. Excellent! This is such a good thing. I am a mood eater. I do really well for a while but then…wham..back off the wagon. Are you going to meetings or are you doing it on line? Is it hard to do?

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