How Much Is Too Much

Thanks for all your kind words about my photog business.  It has been in the making for a long time and I am happy to finally have it be “official.”  I certainly won’t get rich-as my availability is quite limited–as I have two kids, go to school, serve on the board of a non-profit, am learning how to write grants and serve as webmaster/designer for my mom’s website.  I swear that I also enjoy my husbands company.  It’s a shame we rarely get any quality time together. 

I was talking with hubby yesterday about my photog business and he quietly laughed and said that I must not think 5 jobs was enough.  I looked at him and he listed them….

“mom, wife, student, EOR board member/grant writer, webmaster, and now photographer.”

I had to remind him that I am not content unless I am doing all that I can.  I love being a wife and mother but neither of those things are fulfilling in and of themselves.  They bring me great joy but not enough to make me feel “complete.”  I love working with EOR and that is an awesome responsibility and pleasure.  It will keep me busy but there is more.  I don’t even want to talk about school.  It has become such a part of who I am as a person.  I have been in school the entire 12 years that my husband and I have been together.  I know he  is waiting for the day that he can know me as a non-student.  Webmaster for my mom is less of a job and more of an obligation.  But it’s really only something that I have to do two or three times a year.  So that’s not too bad. 

I think my hubby worries that I am taking on too much.  My photog business is going to be very relaxed and I only hope to do a few sessions a month.  Nothing major.  I know I don’t have a lot of time, but this is something that I have hoped and wanted to do since Noah came home and I really got back into photography again–I did go to school for it for a couple years.  I finally feel like I am nurturing my whole self. Like I have something for all the parts of me.  Maybe it will be too much.  Maybe I will become successful at it–I know I am already successful with taking pictures, but you know what I mean. 

I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know that I don’t want to wake up and wonder “What could have been.”  That would suck.

3 thoughts on “How Much Is Too Much

  1. Welcome to motherhood aka the ultimate art of juggling and balancing. It gets a little tricky when they ask for an occupation on the tax forms (-:

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