As time flies by too too quickly, I am trying to think about and appreciate the little things.  The amazing smile and giggle of my little girl who can now climb up the stairs.  They are growing up so fast.  Noah is constantly amazing me with his verbal skills–he is picking up about 5 new words a day on average and I don’t see it slowing anytime soon. 

He makes Bill’s coffee every morning–we have a one cup coffee maker.  Yesterday we were talking about making daddy’s coffee

Me: Noah you want to make daddy’s coffee?

Noah: Sure, mom.

Bill: I’m going to take a shower.

Noah: Mom, maybe daddy’s takes a shower first, then I make his coffee.

Me: Okay. 

Where does this kid get this stuff.  He’s only 2 1/2.  Today he fell at school and has a huge fat lip.  So big he is having a hard time talking.  He cried and cried…I had to go and get him at school and bring him home.  He is growing so fast and it was so hard to have him in pain (it looks like it really hurts) and not be able to do anything about it.  He was a little better when I got home from school tonight but it still hurt him.  He finally let me give him some Tylenol. 

I am trying to find a way to get back to life.  I am feeling disconnected from the world and from myself.  I have allowed myself to be too busy to take care of myself.  I have some issues to deal with and confront.  I don’t feel as though I have the strength or energy to do it right now.  Am I hiding?  Maybe.  But I am coping and getting through.  I need to face the facts and the truth.  But right now it is the little things that are getting me through until I can deal with those bigger things.